Wednesday 23 May 2007

Word for today

Worrying is a warning light that God has been moved from the centre of your life.

Saturday 12 May 2007

Week round-up

Hi everyone,
its been a roller coaster week for me. Busy busy busy. My husband had his grad party and we had to sort out details regarding the party.
The grad was boring but the party afterwards was fun. Everyone had a great time if i might say so. the drinks were flowing and the food as well as the conversations. People stayed till late and by the time we cleared the place, it was past midnight and the only problem I had was i had to work the next day as it was still the middle of the week.
I felt so tired I just wanted to go back to sleep but man needs the dough to survive in this harsh land, so I had to go.
I had a chance to get to know my white neighbors better and apart from a few worries, they sound ok. Now as per being a 9ja mama, if person tell you say them be manic depressive, you cross your self and say blood of Jesus. Oh boy na so my neighbour talk say make i dey watch am so that anytime she looks sad I should try and bring her out of it. Who born pickin! lai lai, abi na me and you follow comot the same time. I don't want to be saddled with that now cos you never know what you might say that will just piss her off and people go talk say na you kill am. A beg oh, I no dey at all. The other wan talk say she carry her husband ash put for her back garden for top of tree and hopes that I don't mind if tends to scatter her garden and the wind blows it over to my side. Chineke me oh, God help which kin neighbours be dis now? why Ino get handsome rich dude as neighbour. Wetin I do to deserve this.
Anyways, all in all it seems like a pretty good neighbourhood and the schools are nicer than inner city ones and now I have a garden!! whoopee!!. Calm and Mischief have their own rooms and I get to have hubby to myself when I feel like it.

Thursday 3 May 2007

Lady sings the blues

I am sitting here at my desk and my mind keeps going round and round at the things I need to deal with. Its the beginning of the month and I am broke already.
I keep wondering what happened to my pay check and I cannot seem to figure it out. I haven't bought any thing new yet i don't know where the money has gone.
All the things I need to do has to do with money so where am I going to get that from.
Hubby came back from his trip and no show at all. Either that or he is lying about it.
What is it with men that they can't just come clean yet they want the women to be honest with them.
I just feel as if he doesn't trust me enough to tell me what he actually earned on this trip. I know I'm not the best money manager but ....
I have decided that I am not happy with my marriage but I can't seem to figure out what to do.
This was not the way I imagined my life to be. I get no support from hubby for the things i want to do yet he expects me to support him in his. Which year is he living in.
I refuse to be dragged back to the days when hubby's word was law. I will not allow him to do that to me.
My kids Calm and mischief are the only joy I have in my life right now. I can sit and watch them for hours, especially mischief and not get tired.
I'm just so worn out that I think I am actually numb.
Anyway i just don't feel like working today so me thinks that I have to call it a day in an hour's time.
Although having put down how I feel actually has made me feel a bit better now.